Psalm 139:16 — You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

The best God-conversations happen at our dinner table. I’m going to let you in on one of them.

It was after dinner, and we were still sitting around the table when my five-year-old eagerly exclaimed, “Guess what, Mama? Guess what, Daddy? I talked to God in my dream today at naptime!”

If I wasn’t all ears before, I was now. I probably had the same look on my face as a child during story time. So, I asked what anyone would ask, “What did God look like? What was He saying to you?”

To my surprise, she turned to me and said so clearly, “He looked familiar.”

“What does familiar mean?” My husband asked.

She answered, “You know—like my friend at school. I know her. She is familiar to me.”

“That’s right,” I added. “You know your friend, so she’s familiar. And the same is true for God.”

I continued, “God knew you before you were even born. Before a single day of your life had passed, He already loved you and had His hand on your life. So maybe it makes sense that He felt familiar to you.”

That night, my momma heart felt like it grew three sizes bigger. I was reminded of something simple but powerful in that moment—children don’t strive to know God the way we often do. They simply trust that He’s near.

To them, God isn’t distant or complicated… He’s familiar.

Maybe that’s the invitation for all of us—to come back to that kind of faith.

Because when we make space for Him, even around something as ordinary as a dinner table, we may just find that God is closer—and more familiar—than we ever realized.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • When was the last time God felt familiar and close to you?
  • What makes you sometimes view God as distant or complicated?
  • How does Psalm 139 change the way you think about your identity and worth?
  • What can you learn from the simple faith and trust of a child?
  • How can you create more space in your everyday life to notice God’s presence?

Psalm 51:1 — Have mercy on me, O God, because of your unfailing love. Because of your great compassion, blot out the stain of my sins.

Rushing out the door, I hurried all the way to my car—smoothie in one hand, tote bag and purse in the other. I was feeling the weight of the morning hustle and bustle. And because it’s me, I rarely leave any margin for time.

You know the feeling, right?

I drove less than a mile down the road when I heard a funny sound inside the car. I wasn’t sure where it came from until I glanced behind me and saw my smoothie splattered across the backseat. Oh no.

Raise your hand if you’ve ever been driven by your emotions like that? Pun intended. Well, you’re not alone.

I said, “It’s okay, Kirstie. It’s totally fine!”

My eye twitched as I continued, “No, my breakfast is just splattered across my entire back seat, and it will have to sit there all day. It will just smell like mildew later. No big deal. Really. It’s fine!”

Fast forward to that afternoon when I was using all my strength to remove the smoothie stain from my seat. Yet no matter how hard I scrubbed, the stain would not come clean.

But do you know what? Some stains don’t come out no matter how hard you try.

In that moment, I felt reminded that I too was once stained with sin. I could never scrub it away no matter how hard I tried. I needed God, in His mercy, to blot them out. Now my sin-stained heart has been washed white as snow by the precious blood of Jesus.

Still today, the stain from the smoothie is on the seat of my car. But guess what? That’s okay with me because every time I see it, I remember that no earthly effort can remove the stain of my sin either.

And maybe that’s where this meets you—in the places you’ve been scrubbing, striving, trying to make things right on your own.

There’s a better way… one that doesn’t depend on how strong you are but on how willing your heart is to be held in mercy. Only the blood of Jesus can cleanse and restore us completely. He can cover your sin, restore your heart, and make you new—not because you cleaned yourself up, but because you finally surrendered to the One who could.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Have you ever tried to “clean up” guilt, shame, or mistakes through your own effort?
  • Why do you think people struggle to accept God’s mercy freely?
  • What does Psalm 51:1 teach us about the character of God?
  • Are there areas in your life where you’re still striving instead of surrendering?
  • How does knowing Jesus completely removes the stain of sin change the way you see yourself today?

Mark 8:34 — Then, calling the crowd to join his disciples, he said, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me.”

Before I was a follower of Christ, I was a fan of Christ. When I think of my “Jesus Fan” era, one of my favorite Christian music artists—Tiffany Hudson from Elevation Worship—comes to mind. Let me elaborate.

I have attended many concerts, admiring her voice from a distance. Every one has been sold out, which means I’m no different than the thousands of people in the room who admire her.

I know every word to every song she sings. I follow her on every social media platform you can think of. I know a lot about her, but I don’t personally know her. I don’t have a personal relationship with her.

Being a fan is more about admiration than commitment.

For many years, I was comfortable being a fan of Jesus. I didn’t want the responsibilities of a follower. I believed in Him, admired Him, and even spoke His name—yet I struggled with fully surrendering my life to Him.

While I carried the label of “Christian,” my everyday choices, my speech, and my character behind closed doors told a different story. People look at the outside, but God looks at the heart, and my heart was far away from Him.

I was active in church life: attending regularly, serving, joining small groups, and investing in marriage retreats. Through the world’s eyes I looked like a disciple, but deep down I knew I wasn’t. But I didn’t quite fit with the world anymore either. Jesus had set me apart from it.

Yet Jesus never called people to be admirers in the crowd. He called them to follow after Him—to deny themselves, take up the cross they’ve been avoiding, and follow Him.

It is only by the grace of God that I can confidently say I am no longer a fan, but an unashamed follower of Christ. In March of 2023, I dropped my nets, just like Peter, to follow Him. The responsibilities that I once viewed as burdens, I now see as an abundant life. The character that was questionable behind closed doors now carries a holy conviction.

So, I challenge you to ask yourself this:

If someone found out you follow Jesus, would it surprise them—or make perfect sense? Would they say, “Wow, that’s surprising!” or “Oh, that makes sense?”

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Would you describe your relationship with Jesus as more of a fan or a follower right now? Why?
  • Is there an area of your life where you’ve been resisting surrender to God?
  • What does “taking up your cross” look like for you in this season?
  • Do your daily choices and private life reflect your faith publicly?
  • What is one step you can take today to follow Jesus more intentionally?

Ephesians 2:13 — But now you have been united with Christ Jesus. Once you were far away from God, but now you have been brought near to him through the blood of Christ.

It started with a question: “What has God done for you?”

Charity Gayle and others were sitting in a loose circle at a songwriting retreat. Around the room you could see faces of all ages, ethnicities, and backgrounds all carrying their own story to tell.

One by one, they began to share what God had done for them.

A man talked about who he was before grace found him—how far he ran from God for years. A woman followed, sharing her past regrets and breakthroughs. Then another shared. And another.

And without anyone planning it, a pattern began to form.

Every story started in the same place: far from God.

And every story ended the same way: Jesus met them there and gave them new life.

Lost, then found.

Charity sat still, listening, feeling something stir. She thought about the songs she used to sing in church as a child. You can almost hear it—threads of Amazing Grace weaving through the air, carrying the steady truth of Nothing but the Blood of Jesus.

It was the reality that people who were once distant didn’t stay that way. They were brought near by the blood of Christ.

That moment would become the heartbeat behind her song, “Thank You Jesus for the Blood.”

But the story didn’t stay in that room.

Because it’s your story too. And mine.

Maybe yours doesn’t feel dramatic. Maybe it’s simple or you grew up in church or it’s hard to put into words. But it still holds the same miracle—a before and after and a life that didn’t stay the same.

And somewhere, someone is sitting across from you, needing to hear it. You’re living proof that Jesus is alive and that His blood was enough. There’s power in your testimony.

And I hope you will tell it too.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

Your Story:
When you think about your own life, where do you see the “far” and “brought near” moments in your story?

Recognizing Grace:
Is there a part of your past you’ve minimized or overlooked that actually shows God’s grace at work?

Sharing Your Testimony:
Who in your life might need to hear what God has done for you—and what’s holding you back from sharing it?

Personal Connection to the Gospel:
Does your relationship with Jesus feel personal right now, or more distant? What would it look like to lean back into that closeness?

Gratitude and Worship:
How can you intentionally thank Jesus today for bringing you near—through your words, actions, or time with Him?

 


 

L Y R I C S

I was a wretch, I remember who I was
I was lost, I was blind, I was running out of time
Sin separated, the breach was far too wide
But from the far side of the chasmYou held me in Your sight

So You made a way, across the great divide
Left behind, Heaven’s throne, to build it here inside
And there at the cross You paid the debt I owe
Broke my chains, freed my soul, for the first time I had hope

Thank You Jesus, for the blood applied
Thank You Jesus, it has washed me white
Thank You Jesus, You have saved my life
Brought me from the darkness into glorious light

You took my place, laid inside my tomb of sin
You were buried for three days but then You walked right out again
And now death has no sting and life has no end
For I have been transformed by the blood of the Lamb

Thank You Jesus, for the blood applied (thank You, Jesus)
Thank You Jesus, it has washed me white
Thank You Jesus, You have saved my life
Brought me from the darkness into glorious light

There is nothing stronger
Than the wonder working power of the blood, the blood
That calls us sons and daughters
We are ransomed by our Father through the blood, the blood
There is nothing stronger
Oh, the wonder working power of the blood, the blood (it calls us)
That calls us sons and daughters
We are ransomed by our Father through the blood, the blood

Thank You Jesus, for the blood applied
Thank You Jesus, it has washed me white
Thank You Jesus, You have saved my life
Brought me from the darkness into glorious light

Glory to His name
Glory to His name
There to my heart was the blood applied
Glory to His name

Songwriters: Bryan McCleery / Charity Gayle / David Gentiles / Ryan Kennedy / Steven Musso

Proverbs 2:3-4 — Cry out for insight, and ask for understanding. Search for them as you would for silver; seek them like hidden treasures.

Have you ever felt like your life looked perfect on the outside, but your heart was still…off? That was me not long ago, stepping into a season I thought I’d prayed into for years.

I was starting a new job, new serve opportunities at church, and new activities with the kids. Life felt full—beautifully full. I thought, I’m finally getting what I asked God for. A season of harvested blessings… So why does my heart feel empty?

Somewhere between the excitement and the schedule, I noticed a quiet shift inside me. I loved what God had given me, but I was less eager for God Himself.

What once felt like intimate friendship now felt mechanical because the gifts had started getting in front of the Giver.

On the inside, I knew this was a problem. So, one afternoon, I closed the door, sat down, and asked the only question I could think of: “God, what do You want me to know?”

And in that stillness, I felt the tug in my heart to search for Him with the same intensity I would search for hidden treasure—asking, listening, and leaning in for insight.

Following that, I opened a devotional book. As I began reading, it said,

“I want you to know that the way you love Me moves My heart. You are My delight.”

I was in awe. Every word landed like a gentle hand on my shoulder. The condemnation I’d braced for never came. Instead, mercy wrapped around me. Moments before, I had felt distant and small—but God revealed Himself as the one who comforts, not condemns.

Seasons of drift can happen to all of us. Life can look so blessed on the outside and feel thin on the inside. But God is always closer than we realize, waiting for the moment we turn toward Him.

If that’s you, there’s no need to brace yourself. Just seek God, look for insight like it’s silver, and ask Him what He wants you to know.

Then pay attention.

Because He really is kinder—and nearer—than you know.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Have you ever experienced a season where life felt full on the outside but empty on the inside? What do you think was missing?
  • In what ways might you be enjoying God’s blessings more than pursuing God Himself right now?
  • When was the last time you intentionally paused and asked God, “What do You want me to know?” What might it look like to make that a regular practice?
  • Proverbs says to seek wisdom like hidden treasure—what would it look like for you to pursue God with that level of intention this week?
  • Is there an area in your life where you’ve felt distant from God? How does this devotional reshape the way you think He responds when you turn back toward Him?

Psalm 105:4 — Search for the LORD and for His strength; continually seek Him.

I remember when my husband and I first started dating. I put in so much effort getting to know him. There never seemed to be enough hours in the day to spend together. I looked forward to his presence with full-on giddy anticipation—and somehow, that feeling never wore off while we were dating.

Fast forward nearly fourteen years.

I love him more now than I did back then, but if I’m honest, there are weeks when our marriage gets neglected. Not intentionally. Life just gets loud and demanding. I want to show up better, but I’ve learned something the hard way: wanting a strong marriage doesn’t create one. Investing in one does.

At a marriage retreat, a speaker really helped us. He illustrated a simple, yet, impactful visual on a white board. He drew a triangle where God was at the top, the husband on one corner, and the wife on the other. Then he drew arrows from the husband to God and from the wife to God.

His point was clear: as each person grows closer to God, they naturally grow closer to each other.

It made sense. If I wasn’t consistently spending time with God, looking for His strength instead of my own and turning my heart toward Him again and again, why would I expect to have the desire or discipline to prioritize my marriage? And I think that’s true for any kind of relationship.

Turns out, “marriage takes work” isn’t just a saying—it’s a lifestyle. For us, that work looked like intentional date nights, reading devotionals together, joining a marriage group, and serving alongside one another.

Any loving relationship—friendship, parenting, marriage—requires time, effort, and intentionality. Following Christ is no different. No relationship deepens accidentally. Closeness follows pursuit.

If you are wondering where your priorities lie, then I encourage you to ask yourself “What do I value?” and “What am I actually giving my time to?” Because time tells the truth.

And sometimes, the most loving thing we can do is realigning our priorities— by returning to the top of the triangle. One intentional step up at a time.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Where in your life have you been wanting growth without actively investing in it?
  • What does it look like for you to continually seek God in this season—not just occasionally, but consistently?
  • Is there a relationship (with God or others) that needs intentional time and attention right now?
  • What is one practical step you can take this week to realign your priorities toward God?
  • If “time tells the truth,” what does your current schedule say about what you value most?

Psalm 103:2 — Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me.

Have you ever wanted the benefits of being in God’s presence… but didn’t actually carve out time to be with Him? I know I’m guilty.

Lots of days go like this. It’s mid-morning, and I’m already behind—getting myself and the girls ready for school, the laundry buzzer going off, and my phone lighting up with reminders I forgot about.

I exhale, “I’ll pray in the car.”

I don’t.

See, it’s easy to prioritize what I can see over what I can’t. Schedules, notifications, and to-do lists that multiply overnight. Meanwhile, the presence of God waits patiently. I keep making this trade—presence for productivity. What’s eternal for what feels urgent.

The problem was never that God left. It was my attention.

So, I found myself wondering how many times the word “remember” shows up in Scripture (Clearly a Google-worthy question). The answer? 172 times. That stopped me. If God repeats something that often, you know it matters.

And here’s what I’ve learned: to reset my focus, I have to consciously remember all the ways He has cared for me so I never forget the good things He has done. I have to think on the ways He has rescued, restored, and redeemed. It fills my heart with wonder and turns to praise.

Not just in words—but in how I live, what I prioritize, and where I place my attention.

And that is how I put Him in His rightful place.

The next morning, the phone still lights up. The schedule still waits. But this time, I turn it face down. I give God the first unhurried minutes of my day.

Not because I have to. Because remembering Him first changes everything—my focus, my heart, and my day. And when we give Him first place, we discover our own hearts finally have room to breathe.

So today, don’t wait until the chaos dies down. Turn the phone down. Open the Word. Pause long enough to remember and let the presence of God shape the moments that follow. Watch how starting with Him first changes more than your morning—it changes your life.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • What tends to take your attention first thing in the morning?
  • Where are you trading God’s presence for productivity right now?
  • What are a few specific ways God has been good to you recently?
  • How does remembering those things change your heart?
  • What would it look like to give God your first, not your leftover, time?

Psalm 37:4 — Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.

I’ve never been great with crowds.

Let me rephrase—I’ve never been great with all eyes on me. As a kid, that meant sweaty hands, red cheeks, and shaky knees. An open invitation to panic. From dance recitals, cheer tryouts, school plays, even stepping up to bat, each one brought out a paralyzing fear that I couldn’t escape.

Growing up didn’t magically fix that. If anything, I just became more aware of it. The difference was that I might forget what I said or did afterward, but my body still remembered the fear.

But deep down, I wanted to sing.

I wanted to encourage people with words. I wanted to lead. But I also knew I couldn’t do it in my own strength. Opportunities didn’t seem to come knocking anyway, so I placed those desires neatly on a shelf. Of course, like a pesky fly, they kept buzzing back.

But what God plants in your heart doesn’t disappear just because fear tells you to hide it.

Fast forward a few years—as my faith grew, so did my awareness of God’s prompts. I learned that when God nudges me toward something, the thought doesn’t knock once on my heart and then go away. It replays over and over until I listen.

The idea of being a part of our worship team at my church was one of those promptings that wouldn’t go away.

Then one Saturday night, while half-listening to a podcast, I heard the words: “Give back what God has poured into you.”

Convicting? Yes. Comfortable? Not at all.

So naturally, I turned the podcast off and played music instead. If we’re being honest, we’ve all dodged a nudge from God like that. It felt like making a sudden U-turn in the grocery store when seeing someone I know.

But the first song that played was about surrender. And the line that kept repeating? “It’s yours anyway.”

At that point, I looked up and said, “Okay God… if I’m supposed to be on the worship team, You’re going to have to put someone right in front of me to ask me.”

The next day, I was walking out church and the worship leader came to me and said, “A little birdie told me you can sing. Do you want to try out for the worship team?”

That moment felt like God smiling. Moments like these are a gentle reminder that He’s been paying attention the whole time. That heaven is closer than we think.

Somewhere along the way, I stopped focusing on what I was afraid of and started focusing on who God is—His goodness, His presence, His faithfulness. That’s what it means to delight in Him.

For a long time, I thought that meant God would eventually hand me what I wanted. But I’ve learned it’s deeper than that. When we delight ourselves in Him, He reshapes our desires to look like His—and then brings them to life.

The desire He planted in my heart as a little girl didn’t disappear. It was turning into worship. Now, I sing in front of a crowd on Sunday morning. I’ve spoken to rooms full of women and launched a podcast. Fear didn’t vanish, but it lost its authority. Confidence didn’t come from me. It came from the One who’s been inside me all along.

When you surrender what you love to God, He doesn’t take it away—He teaches you how to carry it with Him.

And maybe that thing stirring in your heart—the dream you tucked away because it felt too scary or too big—that’s not random either. Maybe it’s an invitation. Not to be fearless or to be perfect. But to delight in the Lord enough to trust Him with it as He shapes you.

Because in the end, God sized dreams come from Him in the first place.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Is there a desire or dream in your heart that you’ve been holding back because of fear?
  • What does it look like for you personally to “delight in the Lord” in your everyday life?
  • Have you ever experienced God reshaping your desires over time? What changed?
  • Where might God be nudging you right now—and how have you responded so far?
  • What would it look like to trust God with that desire instead of keeping it on the shelf?

John 6:35 — Jesus replied, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”

The lunch hour rolled around, and my stomach was rumbling.

So I reached into my work bag with full confidence that something—anything—would be in there. I found papers. Lip balm. A charger. Receipts I definitely didn’t need.

But no food.

I dug deeper.

Still nothing.

I was sure I had packed something that morning, and realizing I didn’t was frustrating. Hours passed, and the hunger stayed with me. I kept replaying it in my head. I knew I had checked that bag before leaving the house.

And yet, here I was—hungry, annoyed, and confused about how I missed something so basic.

After work, with no energy left and no real reason to keep looking, I casually glanced into that same bag.

And there it was.

A bag of chips.

Sitting right on top.

I actually laughed out loud.

“Are you kidding me?” I said. “I had what I needed with me the whole time.”

Later that day, God gently used that moment to remind me of something deeper.

The problem wasn’t provision—it was perception.

How often do we search everywhere trying to fill the deeper hunger in our hearts? We dig through achievements, distractions, approval, or control—hoping something will satisfy.

But Jesus offers something better.

He calls Himself the Bread of Life—the One who truly satisfies. The One who meets the deepest hunger and thirst of our souls.

What we’re craving can’t be found by searching harder. It’s found by coming to Him.

Everything we need—His presence, His peace, His strength—has already been given to us in Christ.

Sometimes we’re just too busy searching to notice.

So this week, slow down long enough to see what God has already placed in front of you. The grace you carry. The strength you’ve been given. The quiet ways He is already caring for you.

Because real satisfaction isn’t hiding somewhere out of reach.

It’s found in the One who has been with you all along.


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • When have you searched for something only to realize it was already right in front of you?
  • What “hungers” do you sometimes try to satisfy with things other than God?
  • What does it mean to you that Jesus calls Himself the Bread of Life?
  • Where have you seen God already providing for you in ways you might overlook?
  • How can you intentionally turn to Christ this week when you feel spiritually empty?

Zephaniah 3:17 — For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.

The car is parked on the bridge with the engine still running.

Jacob sits behind the wheel, hands resting where they’ve been for a while now. The water below is loud—constant, rushing, unbothered—but it still can’t compete with the noise in his head. Every thought feels settled, final.

He isn’t dramatic about it.

He’s convinced.

Convinced he doesn’t matter. Convinced the world would keep moving just fine without him.

The radio is on out of habit. Music drifts in and out, barely registering. He isn’t listening for hope. He isn’t listening for anything.

Then a lyric cuts through.

“Fear, he is a liar.”

It doesn’t shout. It doesn’t argue. It simply names the thing Jacob has been believing. And somehow, that’s what stops everything.

He can’t fully explain what happens next. He doesn’t suddenly feel strong or brave or fixed. What he feels is quieter and deeper—like he isn’t alone in the car anymore. Like the empty space beside him is filled.

Not with answers.

With presence.

As the song continues, something breaks open. Jacob cries harder than he ever has. Not quiet tears. Not controlled ones. The kind that empty you out because you’ve been holding too much for too long.

Nothing outside the car changes. The bridge is still there. The water is still loud.

But the lie loses its grip.

Not because it was debated—but because it was interrupted.

He turns the car around.

That night doesn’t end the way he planned.

Thank God.

Later, when Jacob tries to make sense of it, the best he can say is this: he was not as alone as he thought. What showed up on that bridge wasn’t a solution—it was a Savior who stayed.

Scripture describes God’s presence this way: “The Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty Savior… With His love He will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”

That night, Jacob experienced that promise in real time.

Not distant.
Not disappointed.
Present.

God was strong enough to rescue him, steady enough to quiet his spiraling thoughts with love, and somehow singing louder than the fear that had been shouting all night.

You might be reading this from your own parked place—maybe not a bridge, but a moment where the noise feels overwhelming and the lies feel settled.

Sometimes God breaks through that darkness with one truth, one lyric, one reminder that you are seen and not abandoned.

Staying alive for one more moment can be an act of faith.

Let the truth interrupt the lie. Let presence outweigh fear.

And keep choosing to turn the car around—because you are still here for a reason, and God is closer than you think.

 


A MOMENT TO REFLECT

  • Have you ever experienced a moment when a song, Scripture, or simple truth interrupted a dark thought?
  • What lies does fear sometimes whisper to you about your worth or your future?
  • How does the promise in Zephaniah 3:17 change the way you see God’s presence in hard moments?
  • What might it look like for you to pause and listen for God’s voice when life feels overwhelming?
  • Who in your life might need a reminder today that they are not alone?

Fear Is a Liar

When he told you you’re not good enough
When he told you you’re not right
When he told you you’re not strong enough
To put up a good fight
When he told you you’re not worthy
When he told you you’re not loved
When he told you you’re not beautiful
That you’ll never be enough

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar

When he told you were troubled
You’ll forever be alone
When he told you you should run away
You’ll never find a home
When he told you you were dirty
And you should be ashamed
When he told you you could be the one
That grace could never change

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar

Let Your fire fall and cast out all my fears
Let Your fire fall Your love is all I feel

Fear he is a liar
He will take your breath
Stop you in your steps
Fear he is a liar
He will rob your rest
Steal your happiness
Cast your fear in the fire
Cause fear he is a liar