“O Lord, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.”
Psalms 139:1-3
I was a Bali Ha’i girl.
Not the lead. Not even a sidekick. Just a nameless background character in my high school’s production of South Pacific, swaying in unison with a dozen other girls who had also been too nervous to audition.
It was opening night, and my parents were sitting proudly in the audience.
“Where’s Lauren? I don’t see her,” my dad whispered, scanning the stage.
Mom gasped. “You think she got sick?”
Y’all. They thought I was home with the flu. Meanwhile, I was fifteen feet away, swaying my heart out, grinning at the spotlight, and being completely, spectacularly unnoticed by the people who raised me.
After the curtain dropped, they rushed backstage to look for me.
“Lauren? Lauren?”
I turned around, makeup smeared and hair half-unpinned. They gasped.
“Oh! There you are! We thought you had the flu!”
I blinked. “You—what?”
“We couldn’t find you! But we cheered anyway.”
And cheer they did. Night after night, through every show, they clapped like I was the star. It didn’t matter that I never had a single line.
Because that’s what love does. It shows up, over and over, even when you think no one sees you. And if human parents can love like that, imagine how much more God does.
He never loses sight of you. He never mistakes you for someone else. He’s right there, front row, cheering louder than anyone else in the room.